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Thursday, June 26, 2008

Enough

Well, today was payday for one of my two jobs. And, because DH has been buying his own cigs and pop, etc., I had enough. Enough money to pay the garbage bill, enough money to pay for the 4-wheeler loan, enough money to pay one of the credit cards, and enough money for chicken feed and gas for my car, too.

What a wonderful feeling that was! Not struggling, not juggling, and certainly not frivolously spending, but I had enough. And it felt good.

I did tell DH that I wouldn't be angry if he quit this job. He is recognizing that he is not handling it well at all. He just kept saying "I have to work, it's helping so much..." and I told him "yes, it is helping, but if you put yourself in the hospital again, that won't help at all." "If you feel better making money, maybe a different job is in order." And he did agree, but he didn't sound like he was going to quit this one yet.....

He did decide that he's going to try to get set back up with his therapist (he hasn't gone to see his therapist since he started working) and see if he can figure out what's really going on and what the best plan is.

In the meantime, I'm enjoying the extra money, but I'm not counting on it. So if it's there, wonderful, if it's not, well, I'll be budgeting (as best I can) for that, too. I'll let you know what happens.

2 comments:

Lorna said...

Hi, your blog looks brilliant, haven't had a chance to have a proper read yet though. I just started writing a similar blog a couple of months ago after my husband was diagnosed, and I have experienced so much of what you have. It's great to come accross other people who have had similar experiences.

Take care, Lorna x

perphila said...

The idea of seeing his therapist and working that way sounds like a great idea. A different job or aprt time one might be good ideas too. With a therapist to help with helping to make the right choice for him things will hopefulling keep improving.