I don't know how long I can work like this...

Well, this morning I got home from work at 9:30 am(!) I went right to bed, didn't spend any time with the animals or anything (luckily Jim lets all the dogs out, so I didn't have to spend time waiting for all 6 dogs to do their business...) and then I slept until 5pm. I got up then, and chatted with DH and Jim, then I went to my mom's and set up her pills and put together some outfits for her for the coming week. I gave my mom a hug, came home, took an hour's nap, and here I am back at work again :-( And right now, when I think of all the time I've been spending working, well, it's kind of daunting to realize that there's no end in sight.

My paycheck still hasn't shown up, either. I'm not sure if I should call on Monday and demand that they cancel the old one and issue me a new one, because that'll take time....and I am absolutely convinced that if I do that, the "old" one will show up the next day....and I really need that money now! But I guess I've been worse off before, it'll all work out....

And on the brighter side, DH got up willingly today and went to Spenders. And when he came home, he was so motivated, and so much like his regular self...he cleaned the kitchen, did some laundry, tried to figure out a problem with our phone line (turns out it is apparently someplace in the yard, so we had to call a repairman), and all in all acted like he used to. It's hard for me to look at this kind of thing as temporary, because I married him thinking that he was going to be like that for the rest of his life and so that is the mindset I tend to approach things with...I just wish there was Spenders every day, so that he would come home like this every day. I have definitely noticed that every time he goes to Spenders, he comes back as "normal DH" and is very motivated. But Spenders is only once a week. I've been thinking about mentioning group therapy to DH and his therapist, as maybe, since Spenders is so helpful, that would be too??? But he's already doing DBT skills training, and that's with a group, and he doesn't come home all motivated from those sessions. Hmmm...