I don't know what to call this post.

I think it's all catching up to me. All I've done all weekend is sleep....I get up, go to the store for my mom, then I go back to sleep. And I'm back to work now, but I still don't feel rested. In fact, I need to stop at WalMart to get some dog food, and I'm trying to tell myself that I'm too tired. (But even if I am, I've really got to go. With 6 dogs, we buy the Old Roy kibble for $15.48 for a 44 lb bag. In the town where I live, the cheapest dog food is $16 for a 20 lb bag. The only time I'm near WalMart without making a special trip is when I'm at work, so no matter how tired I am, I have to get the dog food after work. Saving that money is worth it, though, when I think about it that way....

I was going to tell you that tonite on my way to work, I did forget to bring some important papers that were due. So DH made a special trip to bring them to me, I think he felt good, being needed like that....then he called me and told me he had scooped the cat boxes, folded all the laundry(!), changed the sheets on the bed, vaccuumed, and now he was going to take a shower. I can't remember the last time he took a shower--he doesn't smell bad, but I think that's the deodorant....I think he took a shower a week or two ago....this was very exciting to me, that he had done all of this!!! I try not to pressure him, because I never needed to pressure him about this kind of stuff before he got sick...

So after he took a shower, here's the call I got: "When I brought all those papers down to you, I was thinking, and it might change tomorrow or the next day, but right now I am thinking I am ready to go back to work. I started thinking about it, and I'm not nervous about it at all tonite. I'm going to call the jobs guy on Monday."

I really got excited, thinking "way cool", another great step, etc....but then I remembered, I'm tired. I've been sleeping all weekend. DH noticed it and told me I'm burned out. I told him that might be the case, but it might not be. Now I'm wondering if he's trying to force himself to go back to work because he thinks I'm burned out, or if he's really feeling good. Part of me thinks he wouldn't have done all those chores if he wasn't feeling good, but the other part of me, who's listened to DH for nearly a year now, saying what a worthless piece of **** he is, that part still wonders....

Oh, and one of DH's meds went from being a name-brand to a generic this month!!!! Might not seem like a big deal, but it'll save us about $120 a month.....Yayyyy!!! I used the extra $120 to put towards DH's dentist bill that I have been struggling to pay. That felt good. Now we only owe $262. That shouldn't be too tough, right? I hope!

And I'm tired. I'm sorry I haven't been posting much this weekend, I've been sleeping.