Sunday, October 3, 2010

Yes I'm a wimp.

I wasn't sure if I wanted to tell you all this but....I'm a wimp.  So, apparently, is DH.  All day Friday, I felt terrible about Sarah.  It was bittersweet, because being rid of the mess and odor would sure be nice....but I kept coming back to the fact that I was going to be putting her to death because it was inconvenient for me, not because she was in great pain, etc....and that's not how I envision myself to be.  I felt very conflicted.  But I also realized that DH lives in the house, too, and "That Guy" was already mad about the situation.

I got home from working at the group home at 7am and DH was awake.  He asked me if Sarah still had an appointment at 9:30 today and I got quiet and said "yes".  He then begged me not to put her to sleep, that it wasn't her time, and it would be wrong.  I was only too happy to oblige, as that was kind of what I had been thinking, too.  He told me that he would think of a way to deal with the incontinence.  We talked about maybe putting puppy pads in the bottom of a kennel crate or gating off a small part of the house.  This morning I am going to buy some doggy diapers and see just how bad the cleanup would be from those. 

So she is still among the living and I'm not sure how I feel about that, but "guilty" isn't one of the options.  Now I HAVE to find a solution that will work, but killing isn't the right way to handle it, as far as I can tell.  Thank goodness.  I think.


mojorica said...

You are not a wimp. You followed your conscience. I did the same thing you were considering to our 18 year old Yorkie and still feel remorse. You'll know when it's time. You'll see it in his/her eyes.

Reighnie said...

I have a 15 year old dog I adopted 4 years ago. They were going to put her down and I just couldn't bear it.

Ava and I have gone rounds, we do not get along (<--she doesn't like me. lol) I call her the energizer bunny dog because I've thought that I was going to have to put her down twice but she keeps coming back in full force.

Last time, we found her face down in her water, her face was to the side so she could still breath but I thought it was the end. Her back legs are so stiff from arthritis, she drags them around sometimes... I'm so glad I waited because she's still out there bitching at the butt crack of dawn for her bowl of food.

She is an outdoor dog through and through and doesn't care for the indoors which is a good thing because she poos when she stands up and doesn't even know it, poor thing.

I hope it's not TMI, but I thought you could relate to this with Sarah and maybe it's wrong for me to think it's a tad bit funny...but since Ava doesn't realize the poo is just falling out of her she still stands and stuff and waits for stuff to happen and hasn't realized why it's not happening. lol

Poor girl... it's a bitch getting old but as long as they are up for it, what can we do but the best we can to make them comfortable, right?

Anonymous said...

That's great news. Maybe your DH could come up with a solution like.... humm this is a tough one. Maybe he could possibly CLEAN UP AFTER THE DOG IF HE'S HOME WHEN SHE HAS AN "ACCIDENT?"
I know it sounds crazy but I'm just throwing it out there.

Marie said...

Not a wimp at all!! So glad you guys came to this decision! It is the right one. I was hoping you would make it! I think the the diapers will work well because then at least the smell is not getting into the floors. Of course that depends on how she likes having them on :)

perphila said...

Not a wimp!

You made the best choice for you and your family. I hope DH does his best to support you and "that guy" stays away for a while.