Monday, December 7, 2009

Going back and forth

I keep going back and forth. I wake up terrified that I won't be able to find another job, that I won't be able to pay the bills....then I get up and start thinking about the possibilities and I get excited and hopeful. I just need to shut off the scared, crying person.

I still think that if the financial picture in our house would have been a little better, I would be hugely excited about this.

I haven't told DD yet. She is so terrified of losing our house. She's seen some of her classmates lose their houses, and she is always asking for reassurance: Mom, are we going to lose our house?

So I'm going to talk to her therapist tomorrow to see if there is a "best" way to tell DD. The therapist will be a good resource, because her husband has been out of work for nearly a year now, and he's got a Masters' degree.

I wish I could say that DH has stepped right up to the plate, ran out and got a job, but that's not the case. He's been talking about it, but I don't know really, if he could work, even if he managed to find something....

I think I'm going to start applying for stuff this week, though, because I feel like I need to be doing something. Tomorrow's my first day back to work since I got told. I'm scared and kind of humiliated about that, too.


Grace. said...

I'm a bit behind on my blog-reading so this is the first I heard about your upcoming lay-off. Do you know how much you'll get in unemployment compensation? Will your family be eligible for foodstamps? Now is the time to get set up for any available government benefits, and yours is the kind of family they were meant for, so no false modesty when it comes to getting help. Best of luck in the job search.

Susan K. Stewart said...

I'm sorry to read about your coming layoff. You show a marvelous attitude -- looking at the possibilities, not just the problems. You'll do fine.

With this attitude, you'll be better able to help your daughter.

perphila said...

Between your understanding of DD's needs and the therapist I know you will come up the best way to tell her. It isn't easy giving kids bad news. I know from my own experience just being here and reaffirming they would be ok no matter what has helped. It has taken time though.