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Monday, August 31, 2009

I've been wondering...

Why is it, that DH was gone, but I worked the same hours as usual, nothing at all changed with my work routine, but still, I got so much more done when he was gone? Does he really bother me that often, for cigarettes and pop, or does he just suck the energy out of me so that I don't have the energy to do more than I already do?

Or maybe it was just the novelty of the whole thing, and if he was gone every week like that, I might not get anything more done that normal....

Or maybe I just expect him to carry some of the weight, and when I don't have him around to help, I just up and do it myself without that expectation? Hmmmm

Not sure....

2 comments:

perphila said...

Well, it could be many things. I know when the kids are away sometimes I get energized to clean because I know it will stay that way for longer than 60 seconds. When I come home and see a mess when they are here I have no ambition to do anything and just see it get ruined again and start feeling overwhelmed. I feel like they should be helping more. Other times when they are gone I know I should be working or cleaning but I just want the down time. So it depends on how hard I worked that week or how stressed I am to clean or not. Also, I know sometimes when I am around Connor and he is in a "mood" I do less. It does feel like he sucks the energy right from me. I am spending my "energy" on being calm and thinking ahead on how to deal with his issues. At those moments I think of him as an "energy vampire" or an "emotional vampire". When he is more "normal" then I don't feel that life sucking force and I am more likely to do things around the house or outside. What your wondering sounds just about right actually...:)

Pann said...

I know just what you mean. I believe there is some kind of energy-suck that happens sometimes. When my family is around, I feel completely different than when I'm alone.