Thursday, August 21, 2008

On my own!

Well, they're gone. DH and DD, both off to his mom's until Sunday night. I'm pretty thrilled. My stress level has gone down so much. I wish I had some time off, where I didn't have to work, and could enjoy it even more, but I'll take what I can get!!! Last night, I got home from work, and Kirby Puppy (age 15) had had a "garbage party" in the kitchen. I was prepared to clean up his messes that were due to me not being there to let him out, but that made me mad!!! He's been digging in the garbage since he was a puppy, and he still does, especially when he thinks he's not getting enough attention....I cursed at him in my head, then I remembered he might not be around too much longer, and when that time comes, I'd give anything to have him spread the garbage all over the house again. So I counted my blessings, and was grateful that I still have him to get mad at.

DH called and said he's "homesick". My mother in law doesn't have any animals, and it's a very small house. Even smaller than ours. And my mother in law, well, she's very outspoken and direct. I love her, but that's something about her that was difficult for me to get used to. And I know that spending too much time with her can get to DH, too, because she starts in on the "Why aren't you working?" and "You ahould do this" and "You should do that" and just sometimes doesn't notice that it makes him feel bad. She might have to have a defibrillator put in for her heart. I think she's supposed to find out in the next day or two. I hope they can "fix" things without doing something that seems as drastic as that.

Even though he's homesick, I think that being at his mom's is good for DH, because he can see some of his old friends, and maybe it will move his mind back closer to a place where he was healthy. Does that make sense? I guess what I mean is that maybe since he's there and not at our house, he'll find a place to be in mentally, that reminds him of who he used to be, not who he seems to be now.

Oh--one more thing. As I was driving to work today, I realized that "That Guy" doesn't come out nearly as often as he used to, and I also realized that DH rarely has the abrupt mood swings that were so unpredictable for so many months. He still has mood swings, but they're more like, if I say something that reminds him that I'm working a lot, then he'll go from being happy to being full of self-pity. But the angry mood swings, where I might say something about having to go to work and he would accuse me of "trying to make him feel guilty all the time" or whatever, those mood swings seem to he almost gone, too. Knock on wood, of course!

I'm looking very forward to the next few days.


perphila said...

You're alone..don't forget to check off dancing naked around the house from your to do list...:)